The past few days I have had a couple of total food breakdowns. On Thursday of last week on the way home from a dive meet, the kids wanted to go to Mc Donald's so we went and it was terrible. I mean the food was good, but it was terrible that I ate it and loved every minute of it. I also ordered a McFlurry, thanks to 30 Rock, I have never ordered ice cream from Mc Donald's before. My body needed it, it just sounded soooo good, and besides I think the last time I went there was in November when Andy's mom was here on a visit. The second food breakdown occurred on Saturday night, Andy was in the middle of his 30 hour shift, the kids were in bed, and I sat on the couch with a bag of chocolate chips and watched The Bridges of Madison County on the Lifetime Movie Network.
That does not mean that I am not working out, I have exercised 5 of the last 8 days and I now know if I stay on the treadmill long enough, the belt will straighten itself out, it's all about enduring.
The thing bothering me and has always bothered me is food. I am constantly thinking about what I should not be eating and I feel guilty when I do eat. Then I wonder why am I willing to choose the Honey BBQ Fritos over my body and being healthy. For me it is about not having the crap food in your house, the chips were for Andy for Valentines, but when it is there I cannot say no. I don't know what my problem is. I wish I were stronger and I wish I could take back all of the bad food I have eaten in my 27 years of life, or do I??????
Oh, and I failed to mention food breakdown number three, when I made cookies with the kids on Sunday and we ate tons of dough and I had like 10 cookies, good thing we delivered the rest to friends.
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Trust Me i understand this struggle! I ate three huge pieces of fruit pizza last night instead of running. Food is winning as of yesterday, but today I am going to do. Better because of muffin top :)
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